Originally Posted by Hal-9000
sorry to hear....on the positive side - you kick one door in the face, and another one opens
Right on..
FBD (09-05-2013)
yeah, I just wish I didnt spend the last 10 years watching the door open and close a bunch of times over...or that once a clean slate gets decided and vows got made...that the clean slate was anything but. and she who touted herself as a paragon of communication couldnt even tell me these things until it was a big fuggin problem for her. nice, that whole through thick and thin bullshit, eh? our lives were half separate anyway and she always told me that was something she liked about our relationship.
funny I thought it was just some strange outflow from my meditative practices, but my heart center has been fkd up for the last 6 months, my sternum has been popping and cracking like mad...like it knew long before I didI devised a meditation to do before she goes to disconnect and seal off my energetic space from her, hopefully it doesnt give me a heart attack, but I need to redirect and repurpose some energies, need to open up deep and scrape out all the shit, more or less.
I came *this* close to buying a plane ticket, quitting my job and saying fuck this noise...I know a dude that has a taoist hermitage set up in the andes and I got the ok to go cultivate there, removed from society. but I still have a lot of stuff going on here, bands, got the recording studio up and running finally...one of my teachers keeps encouraging me to write a student manual and begin teaching the meditative practices and chi gung I know...we'll see how things pan out. met a lot of people recently interested in this shit, so I am going to start trying to gather them up and teach them stuff. of course, I do need to be a little selective...this chick I met who is pretty...uh, wild, and has pretty much all of her energy stuck in her crotch...she was interested in the things I was teaching and I did some energetic shit with her...now this chick is so whacked me and my buddy watcher her fuck a flag pole once, ffs...but I did some other stuff and well, hahaha...use your imagination...I didnt touch her. her boyfriend wasnt too happy about that...although he didnt know *that* aspect of it
fuckin life, man...I tell ya.
geez FBD...and here I was stressed picking out a new car
keep on, keepin on man
FBD (09-05-2013)
well...if for some reason I get fired from my job and our guy renting the property the studio is on loses the rent because he just about cant pay it as is...I am going to light my house on fire and leave the country
hope it doesn't come to that....there's equity in your home, rent it to a family of 17 immigrants
some, but not much. shit that reminds me, I have to do all the insurance bs for the house & car and go open a new bank acct also. bloody hell!
FBD, so sorry to hear of your problems, truly. Not much I can say, other than yes, it does happen, and no, it's never fun when it does. If you do decide to "leave the country" (joking here, sorta) may I recommend Peru, specifically the Miraflores, or San Isidro areas of Lima? Awesome food, entertainments, gambling, shopping, health clubs, many martial arts domos. Not sure about meditation, but I'm willing to say it's very much there based on the expat society that I'm familiar with.
If you do go there, in about 5 more years, I'll meet ya there. Gotta get the youngest through college first. Bar nore, of all the places I've been in the world, this is my favorite. (Well, okay, Land's End is cool as hell to, but you gotta bring your own split tail, food and drinks)
FBD (09-09-2013)
Tires for my truck and my g/f's car
I literally drained my bank account with a 9000 dollar down payment...I need to get some new winter tires as well..
9000.......
Jesus.. thats a huge down payment
it helped against 22000 and change....now I only have 36 months of semi reasonable payments on about 13000.....fook me all these dealerships want to lock you into an 84 month payment plan
Yeah, but isnt Toyota offering 0% financing right now?
it depends on the term and the car....this one was at 1.9% and best I could get for a rival car was .99%...
still, one or two percent is better than anything the bank can give me...
this is the first time I've had to finance a car so I'm nervous....bought my last two vehicles with savings, stocks etc so the commitment part is freaking me a little
the ol dreaded C-word ..
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