I hate days like today.
Going to pick my Mom up a Valentine's Day card, some fake flowers (because real ones are not recommended), some chocolates she likes but will never eat that will end up sitting in her beside dresser for months...and she won't even know what the day means or who I am.
God dammit
Goofy (02-14-2019), KevinD (02-15-2019), Teh One Who Knocks (02-14-2019)
Hal-9000 (02-14-2019)
DemonGeminiX (02-14-2019), Goofy (02-14-2019), Teh One Who Knocks (02-14-2019)
Yeah, dementia sucks I've been quite fortunate in that no-one in my immediate family has been struck by it, but my best mate's dad had it and it was horrible to watch him go from being a big, strong, althletic and intelligent guy to........ well, you know Cunt of a disease
DemonGeminiX (02-14-2019), Hal-9000 (02-14-2019), Teh One Who Knocks (02-14-2019)
Dementia/Alzheimers and all those kinds of diseases are the absolute worst thing that can happen to a loved one. It's awful because the last memory I have as a kid of my grandmother (on my dad's side) was her not being able to remember my name or who I was. I wish my mom had never taken me on that last visit like that. I was 9 years old.
Goofy (02-14-2019)
My Mom has almost stopped eating yet she always eats some of the cookies I make. It almost brings tears to my eyes. She used to bake cookies for us kids and now she doesn't even know what they are. I get upset just baking them because of the circle of life thing and what they represent now.
I had better go. Have to get into a positive mood and lie my face off for the next couple of hours. Sorry to be a killjoy.
DemonGeminiX (02-14-2019), Goofy (02-14-2019), KevinD (02-15-2019), Teh One Who Knocks (02-14-2019)
lost in melb. (02-15-2019), Muddy (02-15-2019)
My mom did all of the cooking, cleaning, meal planning, bill paying and never forgot anyone's birthday or appointments we had. She had a mind like a steel trap. I remember her looking at a grocery bill that was at least three feet long and saying - Those Kleenex were on sale for 1.29, not 1.89. We have to go back.
I used to think Dementia/Alzheimer's was one of the less serious diseases. You just keep reminding people of who they are. It's a thousand times worse. My Mom is in a wheelchair, yet is not paralyzed, she can't feed herself, can't communicate with real words and wears a diaper. She told us years ago if she was ever in the condition to be put into a home like that, we were to shoot her.
The day we took her there we had to remove her jewelry, pack her suitcase and lie to her about the car ride. She was still lucid. About halfway there she detected we were bullshitting her and started moaning - Oh no, I'll be good...Oh no please don't do this...I can't be alone...please.
Jesus fucking Christ that day took a piece of my soul. I'm sorry for this man, I should go.
DemonGeminiX (02-14-2019), Goofy (02-14-2019), Pony (02-14-2019), Teh One Who Knocks (02-14-2019)
I'm hungry
I have 593 emails in my spam folder.......... i wonder if any of them are important
Mass delete it is
Read them all, one by one